First steps....

Every journey starts with first steps, right?
Today I took my first steps by setting out on my treadmill. I started out with one of the programs on it
, which was way too hard as I found out after 10 minutes.
After a break to catch my breath and some tears,I went back on. This time on the lowest program and
did another 30 minutes.
That's all I managed for this day. Tomorrow I will start to track my food intake again .
Even though I don't really like the Weight Watchers program itself I like the tracker.
Now that I too call myself a proud owner of a smart phone, I can use WW app where ever I am.
I think that will come in handy for sure.

So much for today.....
I will go now and prep my lunch for tomorrow
The first step is done!

A start ....

It has taking me a long time to decide if I wanted to start a blog like this.

Part of me doesn't want to get public with my struggle with weight and fitness, but

the voice inside of me that calls for change is getting louder and so after thinking about this for 

a while I think it could be a good thing to write things down here.

Kind of for my own accountability I guess.

So here's the deal....

I have had weight issues pretty much from my mid teenage years on.

Not sure when it started and why, just that I'm dealing with it already for a LONG time.

The scale has been up and down, more up then down really, and when I had it going down for a while I would start cheating myself and slowly start creeping up again over time.

Well, the time has come to make a change, a proper, permanent change maybe this time?

I'm so tired of extra weight and having no fitness level to speak off and not to mention the low self esteem that comes with this. That has already taken up permanent residence in my brain and I wish I could just evict it for good.

I have never done any sport really, just a bit of volleyball in school that's it.

By now going up 3 flights  of stairs leaves me totally winded and I sound like I have an 

asthma attack . 

Over the years I had times where I went for daily walks and even did some aqua fit

 for a while, but nothing permanent.

I don't want to become a sport or fitness nut, just be able to do some 

outdoorsy activities with my sweet husband. 

As a start I need to shed some weight, well actually a lot of weight!

 About 85 lb/38kg!

I know it will take time, probably a long time and since I have almost given up hope that I will 

get to my goal at some point, I think it might be a struggle.

Yet if I don't do it now, when will I try???

So let's begin and wish me that I can do it, have the strength to keep going when I get weak.

Here's to trying..............